is this where I start the conversation?
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wow this is the most accurate post of how I try to make friends
A lot of times, people don’t take eating disorders seriously because we all need to eat food to survive. We don’t all need cigarettes, so we understand that as an addiction. When I saw a man the other day drop his cigarette in the street, then pick it up without skipping a beat to keep smoking I thought, “Yup. That’s a smoker. YOLO, I guess.” That’s an addiction. But if I told someone I thought about doing that every time I go to leave a restaurant and see people’s leftovers on their plates, I’m just kind of weird and probably joking.
So unless you aren’t eating your food, or you have the most well-known form of bulimia — the binge-n-purge — you feel fucking dumb saying you have an eating disorder. ‘Cause it’s food. It’s like saying you are addicted to air, or water. You feel all alone. You feel like you just need better willpower. You feel hungry.
You mean you eat to celebrate? You eat too much? You like food like the rest of the entire fucking planet? Well, yes. All of those things. But a lot of you reading this can stop. A lot of you aren’t shaking when ordering take out, not knowing whether to add cake to the order, then saying “no cake”, then saying “wait, two pieces of cake”, and terrifying the poor person on the other end of the phone. You don’t have a bite of a bagel and think, “fuck it, I better get 4 more” before your second bite. You don’t plan all of your meals weeks in advance, talking about them every day until the food goes into your dumb mouth. You don’t hate yourself for it. You don’t read menus at midnight. You don’t feel like an asshole for writing this.